I've realized that as soon as I think everything is going amazingly. I couldn't be more in love with someone that I want to spend the rest of my life with. My entire family is together and completely happy. School is almost out for Christmas Break and I got a great job that I'm planning on keeping for the next four years.... Something happens and everything comes tumbling down. My bright big smile that I always have and the glow in my eyes turns to tears and red flushed cheeks. The almost confident again person I'm becoming turns back into the hide in my room and never want to leave because I'm upset person. Everything is so wonderful and happy and then BAM everything is horrible. Why does this happen? Why does God test people like this? I don't think I will ever be able to be confident enough to think hey everything is going to be amazing because in the back of my head I'm always going to wonder what bad thing is going to happen. I don't want to live like that though, I just want to be happy. Why is that so hard to ask?
Why can't I just be in a relationship and know that everything is going to be great. No matter what argument or what little fight we get into, everything is going to be ok. Why do I have to be the one to tell my "significant other" that instead of both of us knowing it's going to be ok. Why can't he be as confident in our relationship as I am. This hurts bad and to make it worse, it's the holidays. What a wonderful time to be completely upset all the time.
Happy Thanksgiving Bloggers. <3
No comments:
Post a Comment