Love is real.
It isn't just in novels and movies.
It's fact and it's standing right in front of you.
So,if you open your eyes,what a sweet thing you'll discover.
There is hope - There is joy - & There is acceptance.
I don't have much to write about today.There is much of anything on my mind.My relationship and friends are all that's in my head at the moment.There is way too much drama going on and I wish it would quit. I wish my best friend and my boyfriend would get along. How am I supposed to get married and have a wedding with my two favorite people in it,if my two favorite people don't fucking get along. My best friend thinks that my boyfriend cries too much and gets mad over little stupid things all the time. My boyfriend thinks that he has the right to get mad and that he doesn't do anything wrong.My best friend hurt my boyfriends feelings by telling the truth :[ -- my parents friend said the truth hurts. :/ I can't stand the two of them fighting.He was her best guy friend and she loved him so much and now they won't even like talk,I don't understand. :( It really upsets me.I wish people would just pay attention to my happiness and see that I am happy with my boyfriend and that I love my boyfriend instead of just pointing out negative stuff about our relationship.Because yes we fight more than we should,but that isn't going to stop me from loving him.I fight with him because our relationship is worth fighting for.If it wasn't,I would just let EVERYTHING go and just let him get away with every little mistake he makes. =[
Sometimes you don't realize how much you care about
someone until they stop caring about you.
What do you do when your scared that your going to get hurt? How do you stop worrying that the person your with isn't talking/texting someone else at night when they aren't with you telling them that they wish they could hold them? How do you let go of something that ripped your heart out of your chest,tore it to pieces,threw it on the ground,lit it on fire,and then stomped on it? How do you learn to trust again after you've been hurt so badly? I guess I could ask my mommy that question,but I'm sure she would just tell me that it's just something you have to learn to do and you can only do it if you really love that person your with. Well I do love my boyfriend & I am trying to trust him again.I WANT to trust him again. I've been hurt so badly and sometimes I start thinking about crap that I shouldn't even be thinking about.I think about stuff that isn't even possible.My mind runs over my heart sometimes and it makes me want to cut my brain out and just shoot it a million times. I should ONLY listen to my heart & that is it,because my heart knows what's true and knows what's right. There is stuff that has happened that really bothers me,& I think about it more often then I should.& Honestly,I really do try to forget about it.It might take me a few months.I may never forget about it,but I sure am going to try,because I can't stand having this shit on my mind.I love my boyfriend and what he tells me now and our present and our future is the only thing that should matter to me now.The past is the past and he nor I can change it.Even if the past hurts me,I won't let it bring me down.My life will be better now & from this moment forward,I WILL FORGET ABOUT IT. I forgave && now it's time to forget. I love youu Mark Moore.<3
Don't waste your time regretting all your wrongs.Know that
in the end you'll get what your heart longs for.Try not to risk it
all ;- don't stumble,don't fall.Take the time to read the writings on the
wall.Hold your head high and don't be afraid to say goodbye.Stay true and be you.
Do everything there is to do.Live life to the fullest and never look back.There is
a reason for the future and a reason for the past.Love til it hurts and laugh
til you cry.And when your life flashes before you die,be happy for what
you've done.Be happy for what you've overcome.& Most of all be
proud of what you've become.<3
----> Mark Moore,
Hello my dear.I'm writing you a little note in this blog to let you know what you mean to me.We've been through some crazy shit in the past month.It didn't make me love you any less,but it did make me think of you differently.It changed my perspective of you - it made me realize that no matter what kind of person you think of someone is,they can always blow your mind and surprise you.I'm not saying that is a bad thing,in your case it was.But I know that the incident that happened has made you and I stronger people.& Not only did it make US stronger,but it made OUR relationship stronger.All of this has shown me that I can do more than I thought I could.That last night,it was so hard to look at you the way that you were.It was like looking at you in a hospital bed when you just got out of a car wreckk.That's the kind of feeling I had in my tummy.It hurt --> that hurt worse than the incident. Seeing you like that tore me to shreds.I've never had anything make me feel that way,ever.I believe that you are the love of my life.I believe that we were made for one another.I believe that God put you on this earth to sweep me off of my feet and carry me away into the sunset.I also believe that we let the devil break into our relationship and it almost broke us up.It almost made us be away from one another forever.That's hard to think about & it hurts.I couldn't imagine life without you.I know i've been without you before,but you have ALWAYS been there. For 3 years,you've been there.I honestly don't remember how life was before I met you.I honestly think that before you,I was just dating from guy to guy.You changed me Mark.You've changed my life,you've impacted me greatly.You've shown me so much and taught me so many things about myself and life.You have made me feel beautiful.You made me realize that I'm not as bad as a person as I think I am.I'm inlove with you Mark Anthony Moore and life without you would be terrible.It would be a nightmare. So from now on,when we go to fight about something -- whether it's big or small ;- whether is witty or just flat out fucking stupid ---> let's stop and think about how it's hurting out relationship and one another.Let's just stop and hug & tell one another that we love each other and kiss and say we're sorry.I don't want to lose you & I don't plan on that ever happening. [( Here we come Monroe,Grandparents house,ULM,marriage,babies,rocking chairs,&old age ;D )]
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